The community for WoW drove me mad so I left that game.

 I am now much more happy playing Unreal Tournament 3 and mapping for it.

To anyone else who gets stuck in a situation where your forced to watch others haveing fun because people wont make simple consessions like not rushing you to the point of a panic attack, please just dont keep dealing with them. There is a point where people wont budge anymore and if they refuse to include you properly then it's less stressful to just take a step away from it.

Now mapping for UT3 is alowing me to be as creative as I like and finaly giveing me a creative outlet I didnt really have in world of warcraft.

 Now for the blinky gripe...

 Audio Description.

Where is it? I see hardely any programs with it at all and if there is it's ether programs about dissabilaty or on medical dramas. The exeption but not much of one is House. Even the kids channels are getting terrible for it and they used to be my last resort when my eyes got bad. What do they think desabled people watch? Dont they think we might have other intests exept how sick someone is?

 Also when they finaly put the audio description track on the program is played only with it at 2 in the morning. I know blind people are supposed to be insomniacs but thats just going to far.

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I won't write more till its ether resolved one way or the other but right now I am having major issues with the wow community on my server.

A lot of these issues my disabilities don't make any more simple in fact they are stopping me sorting the issues.

 I even think someone is using my disability against me.

The past few months have left me wishing Blizzard would interact more with the community maybe this would have been solved if someone was about to watch over it all.

 Its times like this I wish I wasn't disabled.

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  I hate similes and facial expressions described badly and people waving their hands.

 Smiles irritate me. I've not seen a face up close enough to see much ether than a smile or frown.  So this means a lot of internet smiles just don't look right to me. Now after messing up what people say because their comment relies on the simile after it being understood I explain why I don't understand it. So everyone uses them a lot more just to spite me and thinks it's a funny joke. To me it's as bad as sticking your foot in front of a blind person for a joke.

 No one's sat down and described this stuff to me so I could understand and I understand why really its not something anyone wants to do. Just it gets annoying that everyone thinks because you in a game can run at an oversized demon and press the right stuff to stay alive that you have seen everything clearly.

  Another of my pet peeves is describing hand gestures those lovely non spoken forms of communication that normally only go as far as showing emotion. I am not so bad with this but still I can't tell the difference between a picked nose and a bad breath hand weave.

An RP server normally means a lot of describing.

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I have been sick lately with an infection somehwere on my face. The doctor gave me drops for my eye for it.

Its been giveng me a bad case of pressing the wrong buttons which I think just got me to loose an entry... Its so anoying because I worked for ages on that thing.

 I hate takeing meds for anything though I understand I have to be carful of what sight is left in my good eye I dont like feeling like I'm wrapped in cotten wool thats ristricting my fingers.

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I have the gear to get Kamrin tanking in Karazan!

 I'm hoping to show the people afterwards just how little sight I have and what i'm copeing with. Is it cruel to show them aftwerwards?

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Go me!

I'm pleased with myself at the moment. Kamrin is now level 70.

He's my second level seventy and I love him to bits.

This has taken me over a year but I did try to tank my way there and i'm on an RP server so Kamrins not just a level 70 blood elf paladin he's a highely trained blood knight who has not fogotten his life a a bard who's name is Kamrin Tarthas Firrath.

I know it might sound a bit geeky but words are so dull on normal servers. I just would get so board. And also thay are more understanding about my eyes exept this one woman. Well thay are more understanding than on my last server. I cant do alot of instances a day it gives me a headake and makes me sick.

It also makes it hard to type up stuff for the guild. I took over Tarnished from a woman with autisum. I'm determind to make it into a good guild but right now i'm suffering a bad case of no confidance. I'm hopeing that will improve. A few nice comments about punk white hair might do the trick when I finaly get out the house hehe.

I realy should say some more here though. I'm almost blind with twenty percent of normal sight left in my left eye and no right eye. I'm also dyslexic.

My boyfriend found this site for me hopieng I can get tips and give the world a better idea of how much of a struggle it can be and what problems people can have.

So here goes.

Heres to set the scene. Theres a blood knight comeing to the aid of another master who'd been wounded beyond the point of being able to heal himself in the ghostlands. Kamrin the great Master blood knight goes to run to the fallen knight. Kamrin rides though Tranquilian being given instructions by the young but powerful warlock. And the great Knight Kamrin Firrath runs past both warlock and fallen knight.

 What happend behind the scenes as it were was...

I coudnt see properly and thay didnt say where thay bloody well were. With me if you say your on a road you need to be on the road because I dont have the eyes to keep looking around all the time for all kinds of things. Also telling me that someone is along a road in a seretain place can be horrendous as I have no point of refrance. So to what others would have been a simple case of look for this look for that was a wild goose chase for me.

I still think like a blind person often wanting alot of landmarks to tell me where I am and thinking in lines and pockets rather than a huge world. Warcraft was the first time I was able to walk around trees freely for a long time. I love being able to get about and walk around and stand looking into the distance. I've seen sunseets without needing to take a picture to look at later. But i'm still struggleing with finding people beside a road.

 So last night the dissabilaty won. I wasnt so angry with myself since I misspelled organisum and was mercelisly teased. Also kind of an example that if there was a cure for my eyes that could give me normal sight I dont think i'd take it. This is proof the adaptations i've made to appear normal in the outside world just dont work when things are more normal again.

On a side note I was also very angry as I cant tank right now due to the lack of energy drinks in the house to keep me awake though an instance. My eyes arnt just anoying thay are exusting. 

But I woudnt give up the game or the type of server for anything as the colors of words are so veried and the color of peoples ideas is as well. Such beutiful diversaty. Its so much nicer than everyone speaking in leet which I have a problem with because of the dyslexia. I read words by the genral shape and assosiate a meaning with it. u isnt the same as you and bbl isnt the same as be back later. I spent a very long time lerning to read and write proper english and still i'm not good at it. Its hard to lern another languige like this text message languige everyone calls leet.

Anyway i've rambled enough so i'll end it here. 

Edit: Desided to after this entry looked a little rushed. 

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